Uneasy feelings

I dont know what feelings I am going through. Mostly probably because I am not able comprehensively make myself believe that I have changed this way. A person who would'nt give a damn on whats going on with other people has started to care for people. And when the feeling of that person with whom there's a relationship at stake, atleast from my side , is sort of behaving indifferently an uneasiness creeps in. Why is this happening? Is it just because I am a novice at such relationships and have got myself digging deep into them? But people find everything new at some point of time. Am I taking things far more seriously than they should be taken? But how did this seriousness in a self centred person like me creep in? Who/What is the reason for this? What has aken over me? A FEAR of Losing!!!!!!!!!!!

I think its a combination of both. The kind of relationship and the people who circle around it. Maybe we think more of our losses rather than their gains. Its quite natural. My loss would be losing a wonderful friend whom I keep very near to my heart. I dont know my wrongs and they also dont tell me whats my mistake which is digging this grave. Or Am I imagining things? Am I stressed out? I dont know. But only one feeling is true. I am losing a wonderful friend. A friend
for life.

I know that person is also going thru a lot of pain. But where shall I place my feelings? I dont want to trouble the person with my feelings but how shall I get myself rid of this fear. I always beleived that attachements wont take you anywhere and you get tangled. I dont mind even if that person breaks away from me over more important people in life. All I want is the person's happiness and a good rationale for the break up. So either I dont get into any relationship if or I do not make those mistakes again.

I pray these feelings would just blow away like a bad gust of wind.And reality be more sweet.

Sarve Janaaha Sukhino Bhavantu
Samasta Sanmangalani Bhavanthu.