One more year gone by

One more year has gone by. A disillusioned soul was wandering around last year with some unknown motivation pushing him. Optimism works. It was at this time last year I was really working with only one aim. Get a decent job. It was with some animal instincts I was searching for a job then. You need to ask an unemployed person the value of time. Even one minute seems long enough to get frustrated. And with all the peer pressures involved in this competitive world you need to motivate yourself which is a difficult proposition in itself. I wrote so many tests and exams before getting a job. You really dont know how to tell people how you didnt get through a test or an interview for that matter. And when you think you have done well enough and wait eternally with optimism that you will certainly get a call and things go the other way, what say, you feel let down not by others but by your own ability.

I really should say I have won a small battle with myself. There was this odd situation I was invovled in at the time of searching for a job. I had got through but was also appearing for Iflex exam just for the fun of it. And damn I got through even that. I very well knew that I was not going to enter the company. I had this horrible guilt of snatching someone else's chance. How many aspiring youngsters like me would have been there? I was really at hte receiving end then.

But anyways all's well that ends well. I am happy today in a way that I am earning enough to keep mysef happy and am in a position to help out people who would need my help. I am out of the situation which a poet puts efficiently ' My heart is full but my hands are empty'.

Now its again time to contemplate on the question 'Where am I headed?' With this question left to be answered I will sign off for the day.
Happy Birthday.